Rantings of the Insane

YATTA!

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 04:11:43 GMT

Holy GOD! I've been playing Myst III (exile) since 2000..I don't remember, but it's been at least since I used to live in Poughtown and I FINALY((exclamation point Underline)) got out of the lesson age. I started the third game about two years ago after finishing and loving myst and riven. So I'm all excited to do this new game. I went through the puzzles no problem and then I got to this one point and got stuck. Totaly and infinitly stuck. I opened all the tusks, but...... theres these levers and... I can't operate them. They have controls that (if you play myst games) you know must be writen, floating, something somewhere in the island you're on.

"But I didn't miss anything!" I exclaim in panic.

I search the island over again, and over again , and over and over. I can't find a damn thing. I get frustrated, and put it down, thinking that if I come back to it later I might gain some kind of insight as to what I missed. I pick it up again and go through the same process. I find nothing. I go over my notes in my journal. I've drawn out full detailed pictures of everything I saw and I still haven't seen these circle symbols. I'm looking for them everywhere, thinking... well if you tilt your head and squint maybe this symbol can look like it. Now, I'm over thinking the thing. Myst never had puzzles where you had to imagine clues like that. So, ok, I break after a few months and look it up. I get these codes with the previous hint being "have you seen these circles before?" and I'm like.... "NO! FUCK YOU! If I saw them, I won't be here, trying to get the codes!"

So I get them and, in shame, I go back to the game, thinking... "OK, I just have to live with the fact that I needed this one clue. I'll get past it, and just move on and get to having fun with this game again."

Well that doesn't work either! I'm trying and trying and trying. WTF? I finally put the game away for good only to take it out one more time - still an exercise in futility- before this present try. Knowing that Exile is useless, I tried to skip ahead to Uru. I've had Uru for a while, but I didn't want to skip because I felt like I was missing storyline, but I resigned myself to never getting past where I was in Exile. Uru, I sadly find out, has this stupid glitch in it and makes my computer restart everytime I try and enter this one room. SECCOND game down the drain. So, Ok... I'm up against a wall, so I say. ok... time to find answers online for Exile and compare, b/c that guide must have been wrong. I look through a few... one that refuses to just give you the damn things, and then I find this walk through... yeah a walk through for Myst.. why are you playing it? Hints are one thing.... but anyway, I find it and I'm reading, seeing where I missed whatever it was I should have done. I stumble upon :

The second time you ride the elevator up with the fixed controls, it turns around and the gate disappears.

I'm like... wait what?! I fixed the controls how it said so in the book and the elevator didn't turn around for me. I get back under the damn thing and remember, I never rode it up the first time. I found the switches first and changed them (thinking I'm all smart) before I ever got in the elevator. So, I never realized that the scene that plays out up there was stock for when the controls were still broken. I thought it was the 'horray you completed a puzzle' footage I was watching. I see the one thing, ONE THING, I did wrong with the controls and vuallah, I'm up there , the guy links out, I'm in a new room.

There you have it. It's like... being in a stale mate in solitaire, going through the cards over and over and then you see this one move you missed and the cards just stack themselves. I've got the next puzzles like cake, I get the cage down grab my next age and get the FUCK outta J'anin.

AHhhhhhh, peace. Now I can go to sleep soundly finally after two years of being a prisoner on that island, I feel like I really Identify with that character now. :P

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 15:49:02 GMT

I feel the sudden need to just tell everyone… the whole internet, how much of a God –fucking wonderful love fest we had last night! It’s the most wonderful feeling when you and your lover take each other the whole night in escalating ecstasy. The way she touches me makes my neighbors have orgasms. Hell why stop there? I could lend a wave or pleasure to the whole fucking town and I would still have them to spare. And the way she feels inside. I can hardly hold myself back when I think about her writhing in pleasure. Screaming my name into the night. Gods I’m lucky to be with her!

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 05:25:09 GMT

319, 3/19, 3/19, the katet of 19, 19 beads, no matter how you look at it, it's a great thing.

So much I want to write, but soo tired, look for entry tomorow *big anime wink and thumbs up*..... not that anyone other than kate reads my journal >.<;;

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 02:23:51 GMT

Ask me a question about each of the following topics, no matter how blunt, sexual, or confidential:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal

Then post this meme in your journal and see what questions you get asked!

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 00:32:54 GMT

back online!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 02:13:22 GMT

Just letting everyone know I'm going to be offline for a little while until I get my internet hooked up at my new place. *sad* Internet withdrawl is already hitting me. anyway, time to finally pack up my computer and get it in my car for tomorow. see everyone soon.

packing

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 05:34:53 GMT

This week is my packing/ moving week. Move in date: march 1st. I'm tired and my back is broken. But the thing that is hurting the most is watching my stuff get put away in boxes. I'm wandering around my apartment and I get filled with this bittersweet sadness and sentimentality. I look at the plates and think about what dreams we had when buying them, look at the movies I never bought b/c Mike had already added them to "our" collection. Spliting up after being together for years is too sad. Thinking about Life without that person you grew close and comfortable with isn't frightening as I once felt, but it's just sad. And it's not a regretful sadness either. I'm not sad about leaving, just about what we had and where we thought it was going.

I supose the sadness will go away, and maybe that too makes me sad. Knowing that in a short time I'll learn to go about daily life without that person and I will not feel the lingering sadness I feel now. It makes me feel...like,... well like I'm looking at life through a distant lense. Like the feeling inside of me is an echo of a thousand others who had gone through and will go through the same experience. Kind of the universal sadness that can be felt in a beautiful chord.

I must not be making any sence, going on in artsy jibberish, but it's as best I can describe the calm sadness I feel while I pack my things and get ready for a new life.

And I don't only feel sadness, no. I am also excited, nervous, axious about this new path I'm going to walk. Interested in how this will all turn out. Feel like I'm cutting threads and being set free even though I had learned to love the place I was kept. Getting closer to me. closer to right.

anyone surprised?

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 02:34:15 GMT

You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and

the world that you live in. You are happiest

when you are doing something for someone else

or for the common good of mankind.

What Emotion Are You?
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random back thoughts

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:01:29 GMT

So this weekend I remembered this one thing I ws wanting to write a while ago.

I was On the train going to the city from pough town and I saw at one of the stops this blind man standing on the shore. He was just smiling and waving at the train. I got the feeling that this was his outting for the day and that it was a sort of sad tradition. I felt my heart go out to him and I waved back. Even though her couldn'y see me, I figure that if he beleives that someone is waving back then his day is brighter, and why not make that beleif come true?

After droping kate off at the station and desperatly waving to her as the train dissapeared into the distance, I thought about that memory. Di-chan and I sat up talking till 2 last night, and even though I was tired afterwards, I felt wonderfull while sitting there.

I miss college so much, and I feel like such a looser for saying that, but it's true that I look back on it and just want to be there again. My freinds just down the hallway .. *sigh* time to go back to work I miss when I had time to be creative and reflect on life when I start to think this way. You know things really do change. And they do change so fast.

WTF?

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 03:20:48 GMT

While futily attempting to find mroe pics of my Mika-chan and possibly a wig, I came accross the very wrong fanlisting of michael-raphiel......

um ...

NO!

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 06:26:36 GMT

yes I did the same thing with the comments, cause I think it just explains a bit more

Where do you live: Cool Joke (more like "cruel joke" I think)
Describe your first love: pandora (ahh marius)
What is your favourite thing to do: shadows
Describe your current love/crush: big time
What do you like to wear: eraser denial realization .....the first is rubber then it gets deeper
What is your challenge: push the limits (to the EXTREEEME!)
Who are your friends: waste (thats what I really feel about you all apearently)
Describe how you look: i'll be there for you
What did you do last night: Leftovers of the Dreams of the Strong ( didnt have time to cook)
What is your goal in life: Wherever you will go (that's so sad and "shizune" when you think about it)
What do you do when you're angry: the great below
When do you have sex: wind up
How do you want to die: oi to the world (taking people with me, hehheh)
What do you say to your parents: what about?
Where do you hang out: miles away (that speaks for itself)
What do you think of society: rising emotions (emotions of how I would like to rid the world of many poeple)
Describe your most recent heartbreak: before the dawn
What is your excuse for everything: fate (...get out of my head!)
What are your thoughts on a Friday evening: mr. government man (on fridays I often find myself wondering about politics)
What is your unanswered question about life: we're forgiven?
What is your favourite colour: ditty for daddy
What is your advice to the those less experienced: lady fingers (yes, fingers ladies! come on)
What would you rather do right now: boston (the whole city)
Describe your best friend: bad day
What's under your bed: cold (like my soul)
What is your most prized possession: she moves in mysterious ways
Where will you honeymoon: the last day
What is on your to-do list: what's going on?
Where would you rather be: awakening

supa cool

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 05:22:57 GMT

So either early this morning or late last night people from studio Ghibli were at my studio to bring us candy and talk to JJ. I found this out when I came in and was upset they left b4 I got to see them but now I feel all special that they were there and I feel conected to the miyazaki films. I was jumping around happy as anything spurting random japanese to my co workers (and mostly myself). I have lots of tastey candy and we now have a miyazaki calander. Very cool. Maybe if I go to japan I can get a job there >.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 08:42:11 GMT

I shal now recite A LYMRIC....
oh small amount of absente you make me feel quite tipsy..
My forehead feels like numbing and I live in poughkeepsie

*takes a bow.* I am now recovering from my bought with absente. It's the legal form of absenth, or however you spell it. I really needed to forget about life for a while after the whole car thing. Please don't think I;'m a crazy drunken crazy person. Sometimes you just need to not think about the wold and relax. Man I wouldn't do it too much casue I got worried that too much absente would make me die.

So yeah... idk, I feel stupid for recounting this story online, but at the same time it was a fun and enjoyable experience. Steve and Mike are passed out, (though mike never touched the absenth) and cora and I are cleaning up the aftermath. Not too much to clean. I don't get why I feel so lousy about admitting I drank to the point of drunk. I didn't feel lousy doing it, I just feel like I should be better than that. But when you think about it, there is nothing to be embarrased about. I didn't get beligerent nor did I drink to the point of incapasitated. Just happy and forgeting about the car badness. or rather, not carring about it as much.

Anyways, I would like to share the pleasent experience with more people.

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 00:34:14 GMT

Positive.:

today I get offered my health insurance.

Negative:

I don't know if I could afford it

Positive:

I get dollar raise as of next week

Negative:

Steve's place fell through

Positive:

.....I can't think of one right now

Neagtive:

I hit some guy on the taconic and now my car is crazy damaged.

Positive:

He drove away with out even a seccond glance

Negative:

I have not the money to get it fixed..

I'm famous!!! (read the reviews)

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 05:04:55 GMT

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/customer-reviews/B00032E3FI/ref=cm_rev_all_1/104-9922164-3731965?%5Fencoding=UTF8&s=gourmet-food

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 18:27:00 GMT

Ho hum. At work and really tired. I had to listen to my boss tell me yet again that the best way to do things is to get another job on the weekends to bearly suport myself. Boo. I'm probably asing too much t just have one job and be able to suport my rather meger lifestyle. I just ask o be able to eat every day and buy gas to get to work. maybe a movie or something. *sigh* what bothers me is that they seem to have good ideas for making things work.

I wish I could just find a place for a good place with my friends. I don't want to live on my own so I thin k I'm avoiding the minimal opurtunities that I could be searching for. I was really hoping that they would be willing to give me a raise or promote me soon in like a year or something. oh well...

In other news..Idk there isn't any other news. That's really what my life has consisted of for a while now. But I get to role play soon.. the highlight of my life.

My new hair

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 23:08:58 GMT

>.< I wanted to try it out a little before the con to make sure it'd look ok

This is for thoes of you not in the bleach commuinity we have going

kannazuki

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 07:00:38 GMT

Kate, you gave me the saddest serries ever.

The last episodes I did nothing but cry. I don't know how I feel about this,.... it was sweet? but, still so painfull. Why did she have to go again? why not like, the confession of love be what they needed to break the curse? or somthing. and then after they leave it all goes back to normal only to tear out ur heart again. Why? This serries sucks, not because it's bad, oh no it's a great serries, It just... left me feeling sad and lonely inside. U meen, there's the end but, like..... it'll only be repeated,, so what's the point?

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 02:55:08 GMT

http://www.risingstarkaraoke.com/monday_test.html

teehee, it certainly is monday. *long sigh*

funny thing is, I would have gotten a perfect score had it not been for my mis reading the one about the widdow. thought it said "widowed" oh well.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 05:43:01 GMT

Ahhhhh..... there is nothing like the calming effects of hot chocolate after a good cathartic session of charcole drawing. I got a lovely image of a souless teddy bear and a steeming mug of coaco.

cool but angsty dreams

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 19:18:20 GMT

on thanksgiving eve's night, I had a very cool dream. Beside my spilling watter all over myself and waking up from deep sleep before hand, It was a plesent sleep.

Tsunade and shizune dream. They were our characters from role playing, so all the angst and silence that usually comes from them interacting was there. And even though I was watching it and feeling bad for them, It was cool to have had a dream where they came to life. I don't remember exactally how it whent, becasue I whent back to sleep after it.

However, they were sitting on the ground in the woods. It was dark but the moon was brightly lighting the both of them. shizune was crying (why does she always have to cry?) to tsunade pleasding with her to understand and to give her some kind of answer, some kind of reaction. Tsunade kept turning away and looking out to the moon. Shizune got frustrated at her. She crawled closer, placed her palms on tsunade's cheeks and turned her head to face her. I don't remember exactally what she said, but something along the lines of "I know you won't feel this but I love you too much to give up." then she kissed her.

Tsunade just kinda sat there. She even left her eyes open and just looked down at her. Shizune pulled away crying. Apearently she expected that. Tsunade said something back to her. Then shizune stood up, and said they had to get back to what they were doing. Some kind of mission. She just turned and left. Tsunade sat for awhile and then slammed her fist into the nearest tree.

This is what I get for watching bleach before bed.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 03:38:34 GMT

So I had a pretty cool dream last night. I dremt that I was a runaway and that I was being taken in by this house where they taught runaways to perfect certain ninjia-like powers. The head of this facility was Kate, only she was suposed to be soi fong. I know this becasue she mentioned the former head of the house, yoroichi and how she hated her. In anycase, I had been living there for a little while when one night, poeple came to the house and burned it down along with everyone in it. Kate and I were the only two to survive and togetehr we planed our vengence against thoes who killed our kin.

What I liked best was the city-scape it took place in. It felt very, cut out, animated, like it was a backdrop to a play or something. but everything was interactive and 3d still. It looked kinda like a junk yard, with great arches formed by toppled and precarious-looking cars. And kate was in her most awesome coat.

Yoroichi san, Daisuki da yo

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 04:24:44 GMT

special explode off your clothes technique. This fight keeps getting better and better.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 02:13:02 GMT

ahghgh, Ben's house wa, too fuckng far desu. Searching efficiencies for white plains and surrounding areas I find that the cheepest I can find is 88/night.... no way... one last hope..Richie, don't fail me now. (sigh) what am I thinking is going to happen?)

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 01:59:26 GMT

A faerie watches over you. You are charming and
cunning. You have a way with people that you
can lead them and they will follow. You're
active and ambitious. You're smart and
outgoing. You're faerie is always by your
side. Whether or not you may always see it,
your faerie is always there, keeping an eye on
you and protecting you. You're faerie is like
your conscious. It will always lead you down
the right path.

Who is your soul guardian?
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