Holy GOD! I've been playing Myst III (exile) since 2000..I don't remember, but it's been at least since I used to live in Poughtown and I FINALY((exclamation point Underline)) got out of the lesson age. I started the third game about two years ago after finishing and loving myst and riven. So I'm all excited to do this new game. I went through the puzzles no problem and then I got to this one point and got stuck. Totaly and infinitly stuck. I opened all the tusks, but...... theres these levers and... I can't operate them. They have controls that (if you play myst games) you know must be writen, floating, something somewhere in the island you're on.

"But I didn't miss anything!" I exclaim in panic.

I search the island over again, and over again , and over and over. I can't find a damn thing. I get frustrated, and put it down, thinking that if I come back to it later I might gain some kind of insight as to what I missed. I pick it up again and go through the same process. I find nothing. I go over my notes in my journal. I've drawn out full detailed pictures of everything I saw and I still haven't seen these circle symbols. I'm looking for them everywhere, thinking... well if you tilt your head and squint maybe this symbol can look like it. Now, I'm over thinking the thing. Myst never had puzzles where you had to imagine clues like that. So, ok, I break after a few months and look it up. I get these codes with the previous hint being "have you seen these circles before?" and I'm like.... "NO! FUCK YOU! If I saw them, I won't be here, trying to get the codes!"

So I get them and, in shame, I go back to the game, thinking... "OK, I just have to live with the fact that I needed this one clue. I'll get past it, and just move on and get to having fun with this game again."

Well that doesn't work either! I'm trying and trying and trying. WTF? I finally put the game away for good only to take it out one more time - still an exercise in futility- before this present try. Knowing that Exile is useless, I tried to skip ahead to Uru. I've had Uru for a while, but I didn't want to skip because I felt like I was missing storyline, but I resigned myself to never getting past where I was in Exile. Uru, I sadly find out, has this stupid glitch in it and makes my computer restart everytime I try and enter this one room. SECCOND game down the drain. So, Ok... I'm up against a wall, so I say. ok... time to find answers online for Exile and compare, b/c that guide must have been wrong. I look through a few... one that refuses to just give you the damn things, and then I find this walk through... yeah a walk through for Myst.. why are you playing it? Hints are one thing.... but anyway, I find it and I'm reading, seeing where I missed whatever it was I should have done. I stumble upon :

The second time you ride the elevator up with the fixed controls, it turns around and the gate disappears.

I'm like... wait what?! I fixed the controls how it said so in the book and the elevator didn't turn around for me. I get back under the damn thing and remember, I never rode it up the first time. I found the switches first and changed them (thinking I'm all smart) before I ever got in the elevator. So, I never realized that the scene that plays out up there was stock for when the controls were still broken. I thought it was the 'horray you completed a puzzle' footage I was watching. I see the one thing, ONE THING, I did wrong with the controls and vuallah, I'm up there , the guy links out, I'm in a new room.

There you have it. It's like... being in a stale mate in solitaire, going through the cards over and over and then you see this one move you missed and the cards just stack themselves. I've got the next puzzles like cake, I get the cage down grab my next age and get the FUCK outta J'anin.



AHhhhhhh, peace. Now I can go to sleep soundly finally after two years of being a prisoner on that island, I feel like I really Identify with that character now. :P

I feel the sudden need to just tell everyone… the whole internet, how much of a God –fucking wonderful love fest we had last night! It’s the most wonderful feeling when you and your lover take each other the whole night in escalating ecstasy. The way she touches me makes my neighbors have orgasms. Hell why stop there? I could lend a wave or pleasure to the whole fucking town and I would still have them to spare. And the way she feels inside. I can hardly hold myself back when I think about her writhing in pleasure. Screaming my name into the night. Gods I’m lucky to be with her!

319, 3/19, 3/19, the katet of 19, 19 beads, no matter how you look at it, it's a great thing.

So much I want to write, but soo tired, look for entry tomorow *big anime wink and thumbs up*..... not that anyone other than kate reads my journal >.<;;

Ask me a question about each of the following topics, no matter how blunt, sexual, or confidential:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal

Then post this meme in your journal and see what questions you get asked!

Just letting everyone know I'm going to be offline for a little while until I get my internet hooked up at my new place. *sad* Internet withdrawl is already hitting me. anyway, time to finally pack up my computer and get it in my car for tomorow. see everyone soon.

This week is my packing/ moving week. Move in date: march 1st. I'm tired and my back is broken. But the thing that is hurting the most is watching my stuff get put away in boxes. I'm wandering around my apartment and I get filled with this bittersweet sadness and sentimentality. I look at the plates and think about what dreams we had when buying them, look at the movies I never bought b/c Mike had already added them to "our" collection. Spliting up after being together for years is too sad. Thinking about Life without that person you grew close and comfortable with isn't frightening as I once felt, but it's just sad. And it's not a regretful sadness either. I'm not sad about leaving, just about what we had and where we thought it was going.

I supose the sadness will go away, and maybe that too makes me sad. Knowing that in a short time I'll learn to go about daily life without that person and I will not feel the lingering sadness I feel now. It makes me feel...like,... well like I'm looking at life through a distant lense. Like the feeling inside of me is an echo of a thousand others who had gone through and will go through the same experience. Kind of the universal sadness that can be felt in a beautiful chord.

I must not be making any sence, going on in artsy jibberish, but it's as best I can describe the calm sadness I feel while I pack my things and get ready for a new life.

And I don't only feel sadness, no. I am also excited, nervous, axious about this new path I'm going to walk. Interested in how this will all turn out. Feel like I'm cutting threads and being set free even though I had learned to love the place I was kept. Getting closer to me. closer to right.

You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and

the world that you live in. You are happiest

when you are doing something for someone else

or for the common good of mankind.


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So this weekend I remembered this one thing I ws wanting to write a while ago.

I was On the train going to the city from pough town and I saw at one of the stops this blind man standing on the shore. He was just smiling and waving at the train. I got the feeling that this was his outting for the day and that it was a sort of sad tradition. I felt my heart go out to him and I waved back. Even though her couldn'y see me, I figure that if he beleives that someone is waving back then his day is brighter, and why not make that beleif come true?

After droping kate off at the station and desperatly waving to her as the train dissapeared into the distance, I thought about that memory. Di-chan and I sat up talking till 2 last night, and even though I was tired afterwards, I felt wonderfull while sitting there.

I miss college so much, and I feel like such a looser for saying that, but it's true that I look back on it and just want to be there again. My freinds just down the hallway .. *sigh* time to go back to work I miss when I had time to be creative and reflect on life when I start to think this way. You know things really do change. And they do change so fast.

While futily attempting to find mroe pics of my Mika-chan and possibly a wig, I came accross the very wrong fanlisting of michael-raphiel......


um ...

NO!

yes I did the same thing with the comments, cause I think it just explains a bit more


( meme from kate )

So either early this morning or late last night people from studio Ghibli were at my studio to bring us candy and talk to JJ. I found this out when I came in and was upset they left b4 I got to see them but now I feel all special that they were there and I feel conected to the miyazaki films. I was jumping around happy as anything spurting random japanese to my co workers (and mostly myself). I have lots of tastey candy and we now have a miyazaki calander. Very cool. Maybe if I go to japan I can get a job there >.

I shal now recite A LYMRIC....
oh small amount of absente you make me feel quite tipsy..
My forehead feels like numbing and I live in poughkeepsie


*takes a bow.* I am now recovering from my bought with absente. It's the legal form of absenth, or however you spell it. I really needed to forget about life for a while after the whole car thing. Please don't think I;'m a crazy drunken crazy person. Sometimes you just need to not think about the wold and relax. Man I wouldn't do it too much casue I got worried that too much absente would make me die.

So yeah... idk, I feel stupid for recounting this story online, but at the same time it was a fun and enjoyable experience. Steve and Mike are passed out, (though mike never touched the absenth) and cora and I are cleaning up the aftermath. Not too much to clean. I don't get why I feel so lousy about admitting I drank to the point of drunk. I didn't feel lousy doing it, I just feel like I should be better than that. But when you think about it, there is nothing to be embarrased about. I didn't get beligerent nor did I drink to the point of incapasitated. Just happy and forgeting about the car badness. or rather, not carring about it as much.

Anyways, I would like to share the pleasent experience with more people.

Positive.:

today I get offered my health insurance.

Negative:

I don't know if I could afford it

Positive:

I get dollar raise as of next week

Negative:

Steve's place fell through

Positive:

.....I can't think of one right now

Neagtive:

I hit some guy on the taconic and now my car is crazy damaged.

Positive:

He drove away with out even a seccond glance

Negative:

I have not the money to get it fixed..

Ho hum. At work and really tired. I had to listen to my boss tell me yet again that the best way to do things is to get another job on the weekends to bearly suport myself. Boo. I'm probably asing too much t just have one job and be able to suport my rather meger lifestyle. I just ask o be able to eat every day and buy gas to get to work. maybe a movie or something. *sigh* what bothers me is that they seem to have good ideas for making things work.

I wish I could just find a place for a good place with my friends. I don't want to live on my own so I thin k I'm avoiding the minimal opurtunities that I could be searching for. I was really hoping that they would be willing to give me a raise or promote me soon in like a year or something. oh well...


In other news..Idk there isn't any other news. That's really what my life has consisted of for a while now. But I get to role play soon.. the highlight of my life.

>.< I wanted to try it out a little before the con to make sure it'd look ok


This is for thoes of you not in the bleach commuinity we have going

( look )

Kate, you gave me the saddest serries ever.

The last episodes I did nothing but cry. I don't know how I feel about this,.... it was sweet? but, still so painfull. Why did she have to go again? why not like, the confession of love be what they needed to break the curse? or somthing. and then after they leave it all goes back to normal only to tear out ur heart again. Why? This serries sucks, not because it's bad, oh no it's a great serries, It just... left me feeling sad and lonely inside. U meen, there's the end but, like..... it'll only be repeated,, so what's the point?

http://www.risingstarkaraoke.com/monday_test.html


teehee, it certainly is monday. *long sigh*

funny thing is, I would have gotten a perfect score had it not been for my mis reading the one about the widdow. thought it said "widowed" oh well.

Ahhhhh..... there is nothing like the calming effects of hot chocolate after a good cathartic session of charcole drawing. I got a lovely image of a souless teddy bear and a steeming mug of coaco.

( for thoes who care to see )